now tell me something pretty

There will always and forever be a part of me that will love musicals.

I know they are dumb and cheesy and for kids and awfully ridiculous, but I crave them.

Crave? Sure. That can be the right word. I just think they are so peppy and delightful and make my life just a smidge better. That is probably why I do not enjoy Sweeney Todd. I mean...it's depressing and gross and things. Musicals, to me, pretty much have to be happy. I know, it is not fair. But, this is how I feel.

That's pretty much all for today.

Except that I changed my toothpaste and now my acne is finally going away. Coincidence?

Maybe, maybe not.

all i really want

There are moments like these where I remember what it was like just six months ago, when it didn't matter when I went to bed. Or woke up. Or if I really even showered that day. Let's get real. Most days I had were "no obligation" days. Which are my favorite. The last one of those I had was back in the beginning of October. Since then, I feel like time has completely slipped by.

Back when I only had a couple part time jobs, I would read blogs online, stay up late, sleep in, get grumpy if I had to do more than a few things in a day, and spent more time online looking for jobs, etc. than I ever want to again.

Things are much different now. I actually have an income, my days go by very fast, and I feel out of the loop with my own life. I have so many things I need to get done, people I need to spend time with, and recipes I want to create. I need to manage my time much better.

What I need to do is make a plan. Figure out my life. What I actually want to do.

What is important to me? Relationships, creating...and when was the last time I spent some really good time developing either of those? Quite some time.

Because of this, I have felt empty, unproductive, and unhappy.

My hope is to simply start slowly. Maybe blog a little more when I feel inspired. Paint again, practice with my new calligraphy set, and (my favorite) WRITE again. And REGULARLY. I need to take time for myself. All of us need to do that.

And just like that...I can finally go to bed. The cats gave me the victory I stayed up for.

Thank you. Now, don't make me a nervous wreck like this again.

they wanna see you fall down

I have been busy. Thus, lack of posts.

I have been on a trip for work.

I have been on a vacation.

I have covered shifts.

I have had appointments.

I have seen my family.

I have a new roomie.

I have a new, real, full-time JOB.

Could life get any better?

Not by much.

i would catch you

It is really irritating when I stumble upon a wedding blog that used ideas that I have thought of. Not that I'm planning my wedding or anything, but being a girl I think about these things. Early in college I had already thought of songs I wanted in my wedding, etc.

Today I found one that the couple's first dance song was one of my top choices! Stop it! I want to be original with that song. Sigh. It's not that big of a deal, but I like being the one who thought of it. Not copying off a silly blog. Good thing I have a back up song that I doubt many people would use. Boom.

I have decided that I really, really dislike people who drive in the KC area. Always driving super close behind me, cutting me off, glaring at me. My favorite is when they come up behind me so fast and then I try to move over so they can get by me on the left, so I turn on my blinker and just as I'm checking my blind spot THEY are changing into the right lane so they can pass me there. Excuse you, you are not following the rules of the road, mister/miss.

The bed intruder song is forever stuck in my head.

I wrote an essay last week. It was really fun. It was for a contest. Extremely cheesy, but such a wonderful outlet. I look forward to writing more as the weather gets colder and I don't want to go out into the world.

Outside it feels and smells like it's time to make apple pie and decorate for Halloween. I am pumped. But I will miss it being warm outside. Putting on/picking out a jacket/coat/sweater adds a few minutes to my getting ready time - not a fan.

you've changed for the better

Oh, the job hunt. Never fails to be an interesting time.

My fave thing right now is listening to all the interview and things that Clint is doing. Like, I seriously get more excited about this stuff when it has to do with him instead of me. Mainly because I know everyone will offer him a job.

Fall is upon us, my friends. I thought I would be ready for this (and I mainly am), but I am not equipped with the proper garments for this weather. And considering a month from now I'll be enjoying a very chilly NYC, I need to fix this fact.

When I was in Topeka I went through a ton of my stuff and got rid* of almost 70 CDs. Who in the WORLD has that many CDs? Oof. It is crazy. Also, clothes I have had since the beginning of HS. Why I still have them is beyond me, considering I was half the size I am now.

I wish Netflix wasn't so popular. All the DVDs I want have long or very long waits to get them. Stop having the same tastes as me, world!

Mm...any haircut ideas? I need something new.


*By "got rid" I mean I put them in boxes that I intend to sell sometime in the near future. One step at a time, people, one step at a time.

build my castle out of sand

Mid-September and life is good.

It is difficult to believe that a year ago I was still unemployed. What the heck was I doing with my life? Still looking for additional employment. Any and all suggestions welcome.

Although today my manager told me she would be really sad if I ever left the store. It was cute.

Having lunch at 3pm really makes me not hungry at ALL for dinner. I'll probably end up eating at 9.

In other news, I am using my very own laptop right now. For the first time in TWO MONTHS. Genius boyfriend fixed it and oh my goodness is it wonderful. I'm going to write an essay and send it to Real Simple and get it published and win a free trip to NYC now. Boom. Because I felt weird doing that on Mom's computer.

I am sore from hula hooping on Sunday and boxing, golfing, and bowling yesterday.

Yep. From the Wii.

I am a nerd. Nothing new here.

somewhere in detroit

I have decided (because a lot of my friends are planning theirs) that whenever I get to a point that I am engaged and planning a wedding, it would be really great to start a blog, get it popular, and then have the readers dedcide everything about it. The dress, location, venues, catering, colors, etc. That way, my guests have an input and my indecisive mind can rest easy! Liklihood of me actually doing that is small, but a fun idea anyway!

Before I forget to tell you: this is my 100th post. Crazy.

In other news, I have started to look for another job. Any and all suggestions would be quite lovely.

Also, I'll probably be wearing a prom dress at work tomorrow. So, come to Lush between 9 and 2 (yep, opening an hour early) and avoid the newest addition to the mall: the American Girl store...because it's gonna be NUTS.