no dawn, no day, i'm always in this twilight

Certain aspects of life are quite simply put: awesome.

For me, my "awesome" of the last 24 hours has been my new face wash. Although it took about twenty seven years to figure out which one I wanted (because do they REALLY have to have like...50 options at Target?), I think just having a new thing to switch up my daily routine is exciting. This new face wash has a cute little pink and white outside and after I wash it off, my face feels cooler (temperature-wise, not hip-and-awesome-wise). Which is great, because my sister likes to keep our house at rain forest temperatures.

Here is something not many know about me. Okay, multiple things.

I have three different conditioners.
I have six shampoos.
I have four bars of soap.
I have five shower gels.

Clearly, I do not like having the same routine every day. I like to mix and match my smells, mix and match what my hair will feel like, and overall, just add a punch of pizazz to the day - showing the world that I can have my small bit of creativity even if my drone-like office job takes it all away!

I never considered myself a very...cosmetic-oriented girl. Lush changed that in me. I also have a large variety of lotions. About four or five different facial moisturizers, too. The greatest part about all of this is that most of it (probably 75% of it) was FREE from the store. Like...a shipment came in frozen on accident so we got to take it home. Or someone changed their mind and returned it - whoo! So, that being said, please do not think that I have to have that much in my shower at all times.

Every Friday at work they bring in Panera. We get to pre-order and they bring it to us. It is horrible because I always want it and I shouldn't pay ten bucks every week for Panera. But, it's just so dang good.

FYI: mint.com is life changing

On another note, in case you don't follow me on Twitter - I do not have a life. Or maybe I have TOO much of a life.

All my weekends are accounted for until August. Seriously? How does that even happen? both Saturday and Sunday (and, to be honest, most Fridays, too) are booked up. So...no one plan anything cool until August. Because I can't go.

And everyone stop getting married already. Sheesh. And no babies for a few years, mmmkay?

This ends my saga of tonight.

I bid you adieu.

now tell me something pretty

There will always and forever be a part of me that will love musicals.

I know they are dumb and cheesy and for kids and awfully ridiculous, but I crave them.

Crave? Sure. That can be the right word. I just think they are so peppy and delightful and make my life just a smidge better. That is probably why I do not enjoy Sweeney Todd. I mean...it's depressing and gross and things. Musicals, to me, pretty much have to be happy. I know, it is not fair. But, this is how I feel.

That's pretty much all for today.

Except that I changed my toothpaste and now my acne is finally going away. Coincidence?

Maybe, maybe not.

all i really want

There are moments like these where I remember what it was like just six months ago, when it didn't matter when I went to bed. Or woke up. Or if I really even showered that day. Let's get real. Most days I had were "no obligation" days. Which are my favorite. The last one of those I had was back in the beginning of October. Since then, I feel like time has completely slipped by.

Back when I only had a couple part time jobs, I would read blogs online, stay up late, sleep in, get grumpy if I had to do more than a few things in a day, and spent more time online looking for jobs, etc. than I ever want to again.

Things are much different now. I actually have an income, my days go by very fast, and I feel out of the loop with my own life. I have so many things I need to get done, people I need to spend time with, and recipes I want to create. I need to manage my time much better.

What I need to do is make a plan. Figure out my life. What I actually want to do.

What is important to me? Relationships, creating...and when was the last time I spent some really good time developing either of those? Quite some time.

Because of this, I have felt empty, unproductive, and unhappy.

My hope is to simply start slowly. Maybe blog a little more when I feel inspired. Paint again, practice with my new calligraphy set, and (my favorite) WRITE again. And REGULARLY. I need to take time for myself. All of us need to do that.

And just like that...I can finally go to bed. The cats gave me the victory I stayed up for.

Thank you. Now, don't make me a nervous wreck like this again.

they wanna see you fall down

I have been busy. Thus, lack of posts.

I have been on a trip for work.

I have been on a vacation.

I have covered shifts.

I have had appointments.

I have seen my family.

I have a new roomie.

I have a new, real, full-time JOB.

Could life get any better?

Not by much.

i would catch you

It is really irritating when I stumble upon a wedding blog that used ideas that I have thought of. Not that I'm planning my wedding or anything, but being a girl I think about these things. Early in college I had already thought of songs I wanted in my wedding, etc.

Today I found one that the couple's first dance song was one of my top choices! Stop it! I want to be original with that song. Sigh. It's not that big of a deal, but I like being the one who thought of it. Not copying off a silly blog. Good thing I have a back up song that I doubt many people would use. Boom.

I have decided that I really, really dislike people who drive in the KC area. Always driving super close behind me, cutting me off, glaring at me. My favorite is when they come up behind me so fast and then I try to move over so they can get by me on the left, so I turn on my blinker and just as I'm checking my blind spot THEY are changing into the right lane so they can pass me there. Excuse you, you are not following the rules of the road, mister/miss.

The bed intruder song is forever stuck in my head.

I wrote an essay last week. It was really fun. It was for a contest. Extremely cheesy, but such a wonderful outlet. I look forward to writing more as the weather gets colder and I don't want to go out into the world.

Outside it feels and smells like it's time to make apple pie and decorate for Halloween. I am pumped. But I will miss it being warm outside. Putting on/picking out a jacket/coat/sweater adds a few minutes to my getting ready time - not a fan.

you've changed for the better

Oh, the job hunt. Never fails to be an interesting time.

My fave thing right now is listening to all the interview and things that Clint is doing. Like, I seriously get more excited about this stuff when it has to do with him instead of me. Mainly because I know everyone will offer him a job.

Fall is upon us, my friends. I thought I would be ready for this (and I mainly am), but I am not equipped with the proper garments for this weather. And considering a month from now I'll be enjoying a very chilly NYC, I need to fix this fact.

When I was in Topeka I went through a ton of my stuff and got rid* of almost 70 CDs. Who in the WORLD has that many CDs? Oof. It is crazy. Also, clothes I have had since the beginning of HS. Why I still have them is beyond me, considering I was half the size I am now.

I wish Netflix wasn't so popular. All the DVDs I want have long or very long waits to get them. Stop having the same tastes as me, world!

Mm...any haircut ideas? I need something new.


*By "got rid" I mean I put them in boxes that I intend to sell sometime in the near future. One step at a time, people, one step at a time.

build my castle out of sand

Mid-September and life is good.

It is difficult to believe that a year ago I was still unemployed. What the heck was I doing with my life? Still looking for additional employment. Any and all suggestions welcome.

Although today my manager told me she would be really sad if I ever left the store. It was cute.

Having lunch at 3pm really makes me not hungry at ALL for dinner. I'll probably end up eating at 9.

In other news, I am using my very own laptop right now. For the first time in TWO MONTHS. Genius boyfriend fixed it and oh my goodness is it wonderful. I'm going to write an essay and send it to Real Simple and get it published and win a free trip to NYC now. Boom. Because I felt weird doing that on Mom's computer.

I am sore from hula hooping on Sunday and boxing, golfing, and bowling yesterday.

Yep. From the Wii.

I am a nerd. Nothing new here.