sinking like stones

homes, places we've grown, all of us are done for. we live in a beautiful world. yeah we do, yeah we do.

i am really bad at things.

today i did something really stupid that stirred up the muck at the bottom of my swampy heart. and now i feel like i'm drowning.

that came out a lot more dramatic than it needed to, but that's kind of how it feels.

so, whoops. sorry, laura. i really don't take care of you enough, do i?

weird. and it's almost been four years since then. sometimes things just jump out from the past and screw with your mind. i wish i had a better fortress protecting me from that.